Tuesday, March 1, 2011

depression sucks

I've had a hard time putting my emotions into words. The following is the prefect description. When I read this, I felt encouraged yet sad that someone can explain and understand how I feel (the woman in the quotes). I haven't found the cure yet.

Depression associated with infertility is not the same as typical depression. Lisa Tuttle, Ph.D., a psychologist who specializes in fertility counseling, says that depression related to infertility is a combination of emotions: not just sadness, but jealousy, anger and grief. "Jealousy is probably the most painful, and more so because it's not really a socially acceptable emotion," says Tuttle. "There's also guilt for depriving spouses and parents of a child, loneliness and often loss of faith." Obsession is also a factor. Tuttle encounters many women who say they can't stop thinking about it, that it haunts them even while they're sleeping.

I am posting this only as a way for me to vent. I don't know if anyone will even read this, but i'm okay with it going into internet oblivion. I'm depesrate to feel better. Have a day when I don't feel a great sadness. Maybe me writing this out and journaling will help. Maybe not. We'll see.
(If you're curious, the full article can be found here.)


  1. I read it and I wish I could help :(

  2. Just as you don't have the words, I wish I had the words to make you feel better.

  3. I agree with Mikki. I wish I could take the hurt and pain away for you. If you need a shoulder to cry on or an ear to listen to your cries, I'm here for you. Love, mom

  4. I am so so sorry you are hurting so bad. Praying for you...

  5. Praying for you and with you tonight. Praying that His spirit brings you peace and comfort while you rest in His arms tonight.